Hi there! I just wanted to do a quick post because it's been so crazy around here!
We are back to school. Yippee!! You would think after 10 years of this I would have a handle on everything and it would be a breeze...wouldn't you? But alas.... I don't. I am getting much better and around the time our 3rd or 4th is to graduate I should have it down pat. We have always homeschooled (yes, there were years when I begged Superman to let me send them! I just didn't think I had what it takes to do this). The funny thing is; that I was the one who suggested we home educate our children, before the 1st was even born (1993). When most people hadn't a clue of what it was, how to get started, and by the way don't those creepy parents over there subject their children to that kind of torture? Yes, I had NO idea how the Lord would change my life, all our lives through this one decision! I'm so glad I listened and my husband did also.
Truthfully speaking , I don't feel so "glad" today ( not to be confused with blessed, because I still feel that). It's ALL ME! Let me just say that from the get go. I would love to whine and complain about the pains of birthing a new year! But I won't, as I think you all have some clue. I have had a very selfish, rebellious spirit the last couple of weeks. I've realized over the past couple of years that it is better for all of us to have a 2 month summer. Around the end of the 2nd month, boredom sets in. This year we even continued with reading projects etc. The chickadees enjoyed it more and I felt they learned more. I enjoyed "free time", which ultimately led me too my Pity Party of having to start school!
I also had gotten way off a good sleeping schedule and even managed to put a large amount of the weight I was taking off, back on. My time with the Lord had been REALLY suffering and I was spiraling out of control. Superman said on more than one occasion what I needed to do to fix certain things (thank you honey). I thought I was heeding his words but I wasn't. So now, here I am flat on my face, asking for forgiveness and starting a new. I'm so overwhelmed and grateful for a Savior who will forgive me, pick me up, hug me tight and start me on the track again!
I've been back on a great sleeping schedule again, which has made a tremendous difference. Working on the pity part of wanting more "free time" and slowly working on the weight. Not expecting what I think "others" (outside of husband and children) expect of me. I've worked on these areas before, but I liken it to scripture. You read a passage and it helps you in that season. When you come back to it years later it helps you again but in a different way, maybe even deeper. So I'm digging. I still have some of the same issues I had years ago; just not as big, but there is still more to get rid of.
The one HUGE issue I have been dealing with for YEARS is patience. I"m talking about the frustration with reading or expecting the chicks to "get it" 4th time around. I feel like I haven't learned at all what I need too! It still creates anger and sadness when I want to create a happy, creative, loving atmosphere to learn and live in. But I know my Father will not forsake me. He wants me to succeed for His glory! I want to do all things that are honoring and pleasing to Him!
Again, I feel we are deeply blessed to be Home Educators of our brood. Just some days get the better of me!
We are back to school. Yippee!! You would think after 10 years of this I would have a handle on everything and it would be a breeze...wouldn't you? But alas.... I don't. I am getting much better and around the time our 3rd or 4th is to graduate I should have it down pat. We have always homeschooled (yes, there were years when I begged Superman to let me send them! I just didn't think I had what it takes to do this). The funny thing is; that I was the one who suggested we home educate our children, before the 1st was even born (1993). When most people hadn't a clue of what it was, how to get started, and by the way don't those creepy parents over there subject their children to that kind of torture? Yes, I had NO idea how the Lord would change my life, all our lives through this one decision! I'm so glad I listened and my husband did also.
Truthfully speaking , I don't feel so "glad" today ( not to be confused with blessed, because I still feel that). It's ALL ME! Let me just say that from the get go. I would love to whine and complain about the pains of birthing a new year! But I won't, as I think you all have some clue. I have had a very selfish, rebellious spirit the last couple of weeks. I've realized over the past couple of years that it is better for all of us to have a 2 month summer. Around the end of the 2nd month, boredom sets in. This year we even continued with reading projects etc. The chickadees enjoyed it more and I felt they learned more. I enjoyed "free time", which ultimately led me too my Pity Party of having to start school!
I also had gotten way off a good sleeping schedule and even managed to put a large amount of the weight I was taking off, back on. My time with the Lord had been REALLY suffering and I was spiraling out of control. Superman said on more than one occasion what I needed to do to fix certain things (thank you honey). I thought I was heeding his words but I wasn't. So now, here I am flat on my face, asking for forgiveness and starting a new. I'm so overwhelmed and grateful for a Savior who will forgive me, pick me up, hug me tight and start me on the track again!
I've been back on a great sleeping schedule again, which has made a tremendous difference. Working on the pity part of wanting more "free time" and slowly working on the weight. Not expecting what I think "others" (outside of husband and children) expect of me. I've worked on these areas before, but I liken it to scripture. You read a passage and it helps you in that season. When you come back to it years later it helps you again but in a different way, maybe even deeper. So I'm digging. I still have some of the same issues I had years ago; just not as big, but there is still more to get rid of.
The one HUGE issue I have been dealing with for YEARS is patience. I"m talking about the frustration with reading or expecting the chicks to "get it" 4th time around. I feel like I haven't learned at all what I need too! It still creates anger and sadness when I want to create a happy, creative, loving atmosphere to learn and live in. But I know my Father will not forsake me. He wants me to succeed for His glory! I want to do all things that are honoring and pleasing to Him!
Again, I feel we are deeply blessed to be Home Educators of our brood. Just some days get the better of me!
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